I sincerely hope you overcome your difficulties. A friend of mine once said: "A normal car may run more slowly than a Ferrari, but still it GETS there too." You'll get there as well. Just don't give up.
Hi, there. Just wanted to let you know you're not alone in the "elephant! or "hippo" feeling. How long have you been learning? I've been learning for nearly 5 months now and sometimes I feel I could be doing better. Time isn't enough to do what we like. Nice meeting you and good luck in your improvements.