If you say the title in the "movie guy" voice it sounds more dramatic and hilarious lol... anyway
So I came across a clip on youtube of my second performance ever, I'd seen it before but I recently came by it again. I don't have that clip on youtube myself because at the time our video recorder was still a tape video recorder, my family hadn't caught up with the times and gone to digital.
I started dancing/performer in 2008. I admit it, I am the one we complain about lol I had no formal training, hadn't actually taken any belly dance classes (or even an instructional dvd), and worst of all I performed fusion. My first performance was at Fiesta 2008, I danced to a Caribbean song at the suggestion of some of my friends who said "You should dance at this event, you dance like Shakira". After that I got asked if i wanted to dance at One World. Ironically, the first One World I danced at was sold out and my second performance ever was for an audience of around 350 to 400. *Cringe*.
On the bright side, at least my grams and I had the sense to make a costume and I had seen belly dance (I had discovered Natalia at this point lol)
I'm sharing this story and mild embarrassment because a. We all make mistakes, B. I actually regret NOTHING LOL , and c. I think it in interesting how we all have individual dance "journeys"....cheesey as that might sound.
So here we have it, My first One World in 2008 and my second performance ever...
For reasons beyond my understanding this led to an offer to teach a class (which I initially turned down, I did have SOME sense LOL) and a couple more offers to perform. Fortunately it was through the offer to teach that I realized I should take it a little more seriously. And it was through the infamous discussion on here that I learned the importance of appropriate labeling lol :P
I taught my first class in fall 2008, I taught my first "caribbean fusion workshop" at the end of summer in 2009 and was offered a job at another studio for fall of 2009. Winter 2010 was my first opportunity to teach an intro belly dance class.
I was also able to drop in on a handful of classes once I started teaching at studios. I had dropped in on a couple of belly dance classes, tribal fusion, salsa, hip hop. While it was probably like 15 classes total that I dropped in on, watching others teach helped a lot. I also went to my first workshop in fall 2009.
So yes, it isn't the ideal dance timeline/journey and it isn't the typical one, but it is what it is. I haven't been fortunate to have the guidance or instruction of a knowledgeable teacher, and I still don't due to where I live. But I have been fortunate enough to receive advice, help, feedback etc from those I've met in person and online who have taken the time and been generous enough to share their knowledge, opinions, encouragement, and help me learn (THANK YOU!!!). I've been fortunate enough to get to workshops and events that give me a weekend saturation of knowledge to help supplement the lack of instruction. I've even been fortunate enough/crazy enough to compete.
Two of my most frequent questions are "how long have you been dancing?" and "who was/is/were/are your instructors?". These are questions I have often wanted to or tried to dodge simply because honest answers often result in disbelief or judgement. In hindsight it was silly of me. As I said we don't all get the same journey and I don't think we should feel shame for what ours has been. I have made many mistakes in dance but I would like to think that I have learned from them. I'm sure I'll make more mistakes, and hopefully I'll learn from those too when it happens.
I actually consider the thread on here from 2009 to be one of the best things that happened to me dance wise. Honestly it was a much needed wake up call and more so, it motivated me to do better. The forum here has been a good resource and support. Thank you to the forum members and the friends I've made.
I have no idea why today I'm so sentimental and emotional about it. Could be that today my Grandma paused and looked at my dance trophies and said "You've done good Cassie, I'm proud of you" and for a moment I just paused and enjoyed it. Or maybe it's just a hormone flux LOL, either way I felt like sharing this little story and posting it.
Here it is 2012. I've got 4 years under my belt, and am into my 5th year, time has flown by it seems. I'm so happy I foolishly got on stage back in 2008 having no clue what I was doing lol and happier that I eventually got a clue LOL I sometimes pause and get overwhelmed by how much I have to learn still and can't figure out based on my geography how I'll ever learn it all. But that is part of the fun of it. I'm looking forward to getting the chances to learn more.
I performed at my 5th and final One World this year. I decided it was time to "move on" and hope that it motivates and gives other performers the opportunity that it did me.
Now I know how to behave myself
But, I still haven't forgotten how to misbehave:P Just didn't ever think my misbehaving would result in a win LOL
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