This is the week! My first belly dance recital is Friday evening, the dress rehersal is Tuesday night. Am I scared? You bet I am! I'm still going with it though.
My mom and dad have cancelled out of attending and so have most my relatives. They'll just wait for the video. ( Gee! Thanks! ) But some of my co-workers are still coming. I have to get them directions because there is a big detour that GPS doesn't know about. I scoped out the school we're performing in and its HUGE! I went to a tiny Catholic high school with 200 kids in the whole school. This school makes my high school look like a one room, log cabin shack! So yeah! No pressure!
But the worse thing I have to worry about is my own body image. I still need a lot of work there! I will be showing my belly to the whole world Tuesday and Friday night and I am not exactly a twiggy nor do I think I will ever get there shy of getting thrown into a third world prison! I'm still very self conscious about that even though I know I just need to get over it. Its one thing sitting here alone in my own home typing on the computer but its totally another thing when I'm in the spotlight myself. ( So yes, I'm a hypocrite! ) I felt like a beached whale when we showed up for pictures in our recital outfits in spite of the compliments I got from the 8 yr old phenom in the kid's class. I'm still not happy with what I see in the mirror. I need to get my mind off of this and concentrate on the dance.
So please help!