MizzNaa, thank you for your posts. My heart goes out to you in your circumstances.
You are probably not alone in your perspective on your country; the difficulty is in finding like-minded people in a climate of repression.They may well be in the most unlikely places. Without knowing exactly how things operate in Egypt, it is hard to suggest how you might connect with people who give you the social support you need. When I was a student decades ago, student political and activist groups were very energetic and diverse. I never subscribed to any particular set of views, but the fellowship of other critical minds (and fun parties) helped me feel at home with myself. Then I started meeting people of compatible temperament all over the place.
And about Germany: one of my aunts, and several close friends of my family who I call "Uncle" and Auntie" are from Germany. They're lovely! And more open-minded and understanding than some of their Australian-born children. I have had the good fortune to have travelled to some places off the main tourist beat; many of the other travellers who stand out in my memory as being particularly intertested in, and non-judgemental about, the culture they are travelling through, have been German.
Every country has its problems. I hope you find your own spiritual home (in the broadest sense of the term: I'm not a follower of organised religion myself) but in the meantime there's many here who care and support you.
So best wishes and virtual hugs!
You are probably not alone in your perspective on your country; the difficulty is in finding like-minded people in a climate of repression.They may well be in the most unlikely places. Without knowing exactly how things operate in Egypt, it is hard to suggest how you might connect with people who give you the social support you need. When I was a student decades ago, student political and activist groups were very energetic and diverse. I never subscribed to any particular set of views, but the fellowship of other critical minds (and fun parties) helped me feel at home with myself. Then I started meeting people of compatible temperament all over the place.
And about Germany: one of my aunts, and several close friends of my family who I call "Uncle" and Auntie" are from Germany. They're lovely! And more open-minded and understanding than some of their Australian-born children. I have had the good fortune to have travelled to some places off the main tourist beat; many of the other travellers who stand out in my memory as being particularly intertested in, and non-judgemental about, the culture they are travelling through, have been German.
Every country has its problems. I hope you find your own spiritual home (in the broadest sense of the term: I'm not a follower of organised religion myself) but in the meantime there's many here who care and support you.
So best wishes and virtual hugs!