Hi Hyacinth,
This is totally the same for me.
My first classes were in front of the mirror. We were encouraged to look in the mirror to help us see if we were doing them moves correctly. At home I practised in front of a mirror.
Then came second Term and I was moved up to a different class with no mirrors (not on purpose but because it's at a different venue). I felt completely lost. During that first class without mirrors I wasn't sure what my body was doing. I felt that I wasn't doing as well because somehow it was easier to see myself doing the moves correctly than to feel that. When I got home I did a test - did a move looking in the mirror and right away while I still remembered exactly what I did, I did the same move not looking and in that way I got a sense of what the move feels like as well as how it looks reflected in a mirror. Basically, the moves looked bigger in the mirror than they felt.
I was surprised at how much I had come to rely on the mirrors without even being aware of it. Luckily, as a very new belly dancer it's not too late for me to get out of the habit but it means I have been purposely not using the mirrors at home even when I am tempted to. I still think using mirrors is helpful as is videoing oneself but until I feel like I know what I'm doing without looking I'm going to be good and go mirror less.
On another note, when I began dancing I was feeling very under confident within myself and about how I looked. I could hardly look at myself in the mirror and hated what I saw when I did. However, after 15 weeks of dancing and looking at my reflection so much I have a better body image than before and I don't hate looking at myself in a mirror.
Chani
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